2007 poems

2007:

"Black and White spawn confused shades of grey"

It hurts me to see this happen again

She breaks me, this crime is done again

Cause when I sit here, I realized there is no gain

And when I'm a bit numb, I still feel pain

Then I realize, acceptance is just charade

Waking up at 6 and I can't stand to see the clock tick

Going to a place where I'm harmed by heretics

As the cold wind pierces through my face, I'm blessed to be alive

Cause it's foolish to hate when I realize maturity is just a lie

I will be strong, I will be faithful, I will not die

The more immature idiots I meet, the more I grow strong

Cause when you get cold feet, I know I'm strong

And when toy with me, baby you did wrong

And when you feel my happy warm touch...baby you just did wrong

You wonder, how I'm feeling

When I flirt with you, I felt what I was seeing

In the scary path to my warm safe place, all you see is dealing

Now you see me, do you know what I'm feeling?

Cause now you're another reason for my words that are now bleeding

Just another reason why salvation is healing

Your coldness makes me cold

And from what I been told

Your foolishness creates depression

And dealing with this place, causes my dreams to have repression

And when I left, I was bold

And when I'm to myself, my face is bold

Never thought this would have turned out to be so cold

You tell me to go, but you know that I want to stay here with you

Not opposites but the same, but now this embarrassment I must tame

Lights flashing real fast, sweat dripping on the floor

The pain became his queen, I'll walk out straight through that door

Came all the way for nothing

Insane tonight for nothing

Open and enjoy the mystery of reflection, are you willing?

Cold that time, you must feel me now

And it's all the same excuse they give

Cause she'll be with what her heart desires, I will live

You saw in my eyes, that I was drawn

But wicked girl, you led me on

Windy rain that night, there will be dawn

Only apathy and hope remain

These words are my bleating, every opportunity fades away and stays the same

M.E. Girl

Your beauty surrounds my heart

Butterflies flying free in my stomach

Her voice...that voice of yours took me over

The eyebrows you trim so well

Your hair caressed by the sweet wind

Those brown eyes...feed my soul

Talking to you for hours on end

I don't want this day to end

Being a few feet away from you is crazy because my heart beats erratically

Your hand holds mine

Don't want to let you go

First kiss, the sweetest kiss

Gain some confidence, your life has meaning if I love you

Slit and dye the bathtub red, your arm knows my name

Thought I was a dear friend, you don't remember

Don't want to see me anymore, you broke my heart

Walking by with that serious face, queen of sarcasm

When I talk to you I feel like a kid that is opening a Christmas present

Maybe you don't understand me but what I feel for you is pure

Sweet lips, your beauty all men adore

I'm sorry for what I have done

But I understand you now

But do you understand the unknown?

So much love but pushed away

Just a friend but you stay away

You feared me then, you fear me now

I succumb to your fearful apathy

Will I ever know?

We can rush to a conclusion..but we miss the little details

We can analyze deeply, but we can't forsee the future

Your voice is sweet like God's sunlight

They judge you by your passion and I empathize with you

I didn't expect to be your friend

But now I can't stop thinking about you

I too can talk to you all day

Where will this go

Will you change it all one day?

Will you change it all for me?

"They" contradict themselves oh so much

They are full of love but the touch of a mans lips is taboo

Full of frustration, I'm not apart of that world

It masks your face, it's preserves your purity

Well human nature contradicts purity

She always told me to be careful who I choose

Don't believe in that so I walk my own path

Why does it always has to be this, cannot solve the math

I succumb to these complicated days when you cannot choose

I succumb to these beautiful days talking to you

I succumb to all that you are

I succumb to this love and admiration...

"In an evil place"

In an evil place I dwell

Lights, they burn

Screams and enforcement of bitter folks, no one cares

In an evil place I dwell

People walking real slow

Time calms down, lights get real blurry, and the world becomes fuzzy

In an evil place I dwell

No one wants to to work

I don't want to work

Random enforcement to bring bread to their table yet we stay ignorant because you see young girls with one big tummy

Check collectors I say, but what can I say? I don't kiss an ass lazier than mine. I don't sow the corruptible soil

In an evil place I dwell

Life isn't so swell

This repugnant place, where I have to put people in their place

A place where I don't belong

When I make a friend I'm considered gay..fuck with me and you will pay

When I make a friend I'm used. This place I say is abuse

In an evil place I dwell

There's no such thing as love

Scold me, cannot hold me? Rains tonight, you won't hold me. Why does darkness hold me?..it's so cold....

In an evil place I dwell

I try to care but iniquity like drug abuse spins her mind

My mistress, where are you to consume my lips?

I try to care but all these girls are complicated-leaving me irritated

In an evil place I dwell

Life isn't so swell

I don't belong-is this hell?

In an evil place I dwell

I can't smile

People haven't made me happy in awhile

You don't see me smile, I'm in denial-this place is ugly

This place is ugly..ugly

- All poetry written by Ando C